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Today I also like to mention something about day-to-day basis relationships with others. I believe that if we keep it simple then it is easy to keep. If we keep it deceptive then it is difficult to keep track of your deception. It is very tricky business, but very important, too. I also accept the fact that it is very brave of one to be not deceptive. In this material world we are always hiding some thing from some one. I am confused whether it is fair or not. But I believe on flow and as far as we are not harming anybody then it is okay to be a little deceptive. The thing is whereas we are not harming anyone from a little deceptive of ours, we are harming ourselves. Indeed, not easy to cope up with our deception!

For the last many days I am woundering about death, every times it gives a chill to think about it. I know it is ultimate and we can not run away from it, but we are trying to avoid it as possible as it is. What a fascinating battle we are fighting with ourselves. Well, i think this struggle make us keep moving, too. Is not it?

Year 2003 ended not on a high note. The year was average for me, nothing special but not bad either. I switched over from advertising to teaching. Yes, from colourful to dull, from fast to slow, from glamour to respect and from creativity to beautiful minds. No complaints, but I miss advertising world some times. I am trying to be content and is trying to learn the tricks of the trade.

My future plans include to stick on the job and read to learn and learn to teach. My colleagues are manageable other then one or two persons. Overall people are good. The job is easy. I pray that I will stick to this job.

What to write and what not to write? There is a lot to write, but not fit to share. I want to write about myself, but have no courage to be honest. I want to write about my society, culture and religion, but unknown fear prohibit me to do so. I want to write about my job, but my heart says better not. I wonder, how long shall I have to avoid such fallacies and pretend that "everything is going to alright" May be I shall gain strength to write honestly, but for the time being it is not possible.

I don't know what to write about this society in which I am living my whole age. Shall I write it hypocritical society or fearsome? We are free, but free from what? We are religious, but on what account? We are everything, but stable human beings.

So, one can see that I am confuse and why not? I am citizen of confused land. My land is the land of political instability as the military dictators ruled over us because of corrupt politicians, weak economy with a lots of jugglery of figures, lawlessness where law makers are the biggest law breakers, insecurity where you even not secure from yourself, religion is being used for the vested interest, there is always clash between our religion and culture by virtue of which creativity progress is being blocked.

My questions are, do I or my countryfellows have any future here? What shall be done? I am thankful if anyone let me know.